Certainly Uncertain

     Basically I'm a control freak. 

I know this.

My friends know this.

My family knows this.

My coworkers know this.

Probably even strangers know this after dealing with me for more than five minutes.

It's just part of who I am.

And bless my family, friends and coworkers' hearts for putting up with it.

Really though, it's almost a problem sometimes, I really really hate the loss of control.

Unfortunately in this life we can't control everything...doesn't that drive you nuts? It certainly drives me crazy.

Basically all of our futures are uncertain, we never know exactly how it will play out, and while at times this is really nice at other times I would really, really love to be able to control how my future plays out, especially when I feel like I have screwed up.

The only thing I can be certain about is that life is uncertain....which drives the control freak in me insane!

Luuuuuuckily there are some things that I am absolutely certain about

• My family will always love me unconditionally no matter what
• I have some of the best friends in the entire world and we have been through so much together. Love you guys!
• A few guardian angels most assuredly have my back
• I made the right decision in going to the University of Utah last fall
• I love my Utes
• I am, always have been, and always will be a Ravens fan
• Diet Coke can basically fix anything
• There has not yet been a day bad enough that a little diet coke, chocolate and Breakfast at Tiffany's hasn't been able to fix
• Hugs are simply the best things in the world
• My fellow Grubstars are the best people you will ever meet....ever
• Cowboy Grub sugar cookies...well if you haven't tried them yet...you need to...they're just that good
• You are never too old to believe in fairytales
• Music speaks when words fail
• Football brings out my most competitive self {don't you be trashing my Ravens or my Utes....You'll get it ;) }
• My favorite people in the world tend to be those who can make me laugh when I don't even want to smile.
• Football Sundays and Monday Night Football make me happy inside

Even though our futures are uncertain that is no excuse to live life looking in the review mirror. We must embrace the uncertainty of it all and run head first with our eyes closed into the future...and if a control freak like me can commit to trying to do this better I'm sure you guys can do it too!

Much love my friends!

P.S.....since it's Sunday I have to add: GO RAVENS!

Rivals

Remember when rivalry week used to be fun?

You'd get all hyped up all season, bets would be made, jabs would be said, gauntlets would be thrown down?

There'd be themed food drives, facebook groups and parties?

You'd listen to the older fans talk about the "glory days" of their Utes or their Cougs; while the younger kids were throwing out stats and numbers from previous games in the season trying to convince the other that the Cougars or the Utes were obviously going to come out the victors?

Emotions would run high. Maybe even a fist fight or two would break out? And someone would end up in tears...(oh wait those weren't the fun parts....my bad)

So Saturday is the Holy War....except talk to most Utah and BYU fans and you'll feel like no one is all that excited about it this year...


In fact in one of my classes today Dr. W asked us "Now isn't there something exciting happening on Saturday?" trying to be funny. But in reality none of us immediately came up with the Holy War. In fact most of the class was surprised to hear the the Rivalry Game was already upon us. And apparently it wasn't just our class but that that same reaction has been happening all over the place on both campuses.

Maybe because both teams aren't playing their best.

Maybe because it is so gosh darn early in the season.

Maybe because they aren't in the same conference anymore.
There really are a whole lot of reasons


Really though maybe this lack of enthusiasm for the game this year is a good thing. Because let's face it....the rivalry was getting ugly. Both sides did things to each other and said things to each other that they would not ever do or say under any other circumstance. I've seen the rivalry destroy friendships and spread tension among families so maybe it is a blessing in disguise that it doesn't seem to be that big of a deal this year.


Either way this Saturday's game should be fun! I am confident of it!
To be honest though I am torn between two schools here...so to that I say:

GO COUGUTES!!
Yes...all one word...deal with it :)